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PAPA BEAR has posted The story and struggles of PAPA BEAR - FREE BIRD in Demo Reels

Hi, my name is Kevin Mattson, also known as PAPA BEAR. Follow allong, as I will be periodically posting a...

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PAPA BEAR "As distance tests a horse's strength, so time reveals a person's heart ♥
"If I fail, I try again, and again, and again..."
If ...moreYOU fail, are YOU going to try again?
...It matters how you're going to FINISH...
...Are you going to finish STRONG?
We are put in situations to build our character... not destroy us.
......The tensions in our life are there to strengthen our convictions... not to run over us.

July 29th 2010

PAPA BEAR has posted Blasting Shoulders I in Demo Reels

September 08, 2009′ Blasting Shoulder Workout… I finally figured out on my own how to link short takes together creating my...

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PAPA BEAR "If I fail, I try again, and again, and again..."
If YOU fail, are YOU going to try again?
It matters how you're going to ...moreFINISH...
Are you going to finish STRONG?
We are put in situations to build our character... not destroy us.
The tensions in our life are there to strengthen our convictions... not to run over us.

July 24th 2010

Xavs Well said Papa Bear!!

July 24th 2010

PAPA BEAR Thanks Xavs, hope ya' enjoyed your weekend, and have an Awesome week ;)

July 25th 2010

PAPA BEAR has entered MONSTER in the Reality Short Film Contest

As I continue my travels through the stepping stones of life, I am faced with yet another challenge. This is...

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mcfreshjive This is pretty cool, im guessing you got tired of the gym route and made your own!

July 22nd 2010

PAPA BEAR Yea, over the years I have collected a nice gym set up, it works for me. I also know this video is a lil cheesy, ...morelol. But hey, I have a blast creating them, I will get better, gotta love it ;)

July 22nd 2010

PAPA BEAR has posted The Story and Struggles of PAPA BEAR V Final chapter… in Demo Reels

I love to read, and write stories, create videos/films, design and create landscape’s, gardening, small carpentry projects. I love to...

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PAPA BEAR has entered A Very Special Diabetes Interview II in the Open Subject Short Film Contest

Follow allong on this very special Interview, of a diabetic woman that has endured a lifetime of healthy living with...

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PAPA BEAR My Auntie Karen just passed away :'( ... she went home to be with Jesus.

July 12th 2010

Track85 Films This was a very heart warming and informative interview

July 13th 2010

Track85 Films I never knew they had a pump for insulin. sorry to hear about your aunt.... R.I.P

July 13th 2010

Sophia Az Karen : Rest In Peace....

July 13th 2010

NappiFilms That was very moving Papa Bear, First the piece you did about your mom now your aunt. I really enjoy how you capture ...morethe inner core and spirit of your family. Theres alot of love in your heart brother and you show it through your work god bless. And may your aunt R.I.P.

July 13th 2010

PAPA BEAR Thank you for the meaningful and encouraging comments

July 14th 2010

PAPA BEAR has posted 3rd Contest: MMA Video Entree in Demo Reels

When I uploaded my video entry for the MMA Movie Star’ Video Contest, at this point, I still did not...

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PAPA BEAR When I uploaded my video entry for the MMA Movie Star’ Video Contest, at this point, I still did not know how to cut and ...moreslice my films. So I timed my shots, to make them work. I looked through my footage from previous videos, to see what I could make work. There were very strict rules and guidelines to follow for this contest, and knowing that I fudged my previous entries, I payed close attention. Some of the contest requirements were as follows… Contest Requirements: - Video must be between :30 and 2:00 - No nudity, swearing, real violence or blood - No background music, logos, or 3rd party video - All identifiable people must sign a release. So I carefully looked through my footage, trying to find clips that would not only work under the 2 minute limit, but would show creativity, talent and originality, as what the panel of judges were also looking for . As you view the first segment of my entry, I am skipping rope, I love to jump rope, and as you know it is popular with MMA fighters as well as boxers to develop the lungs and legs and improve coordination and footwork. The second segment is the element of surprise, lol. As I did not know that my son was actually taping me, as I laughed at the camera and said, ‘Are you video taping me’. as well as performing some basic stretch exercises, and Introducing my very unique, creative and original talent of hitting a heavy bag while upside down on Gravity Boots!!! Also at this point, I had already trained for several hours, because we were taking various takes for a new workout video. I was fatigued and over worked my workout. My body was screamin’ and as I dismount, my boot gets hung up a little on the bar. I successfully dismount, only to show good sportsmenship and honor with thumbs up and a smile!!! My third segment I am performing military pull ups, (while enforcing the Isometric tension), considered one of the largest mind game exercises, but Improves overall strength, and mental focus significantly, also showing the core strength of the abs as well as my determination and undying dedication to the sport!!! My last segment, just making it under the 2 minute time limit, I am under an old apple tree, and the apple you see me catch at the end of my entry clip, depicts the old’ saying, ‘The Apple Never Falls Far From The Tree.’ With me catching the apple, I know God is with me and I am successfully taking control of my life, I am focused and My Faith and Courage is Strong. I am not sure what direction my road is taking me, but I am content and I do know that I am on the right path… I have spent a lifetime dedicated & committed to weight training, boxing, & mixed martial arts… I started as a young teen, I was a solid kid, with a little bit of chunk…lol… I have never lost my interest! Over the years it has evolved in an healthy habit/addiction! …like when ya just gotta have that cup of coffee/green tea!I just turned 43, I am so focused in everything I do, and have so much energy!!! I am a kid at heart ;) … Like Popeye needs his spinach…its in me blood…lol… The health and fitness benifits of looking and feeling good are priceless to me and is an addictive drug, It is my habitual habit, my hobby, my lifestyle, my life long passion… how could you not love it??? How could you not…
Kevins performance working the heavy bag while upside down in gravity boots won this tattooed (and cut) Grandpa the role in MMA-powered action film, Beatdown.
THE WINNER OF OUR 'MMA MOVIE STAR' VIDEO CONTEST IS: KEVIN MATTSON!!!
http://blog.movieset.com/films-on-movieset/mma-movie-star-video-contest-winner-shares-his-beatdown-experience
BE WILLING TO DREAM ALONE SOMETIMES.
Every Champion must be willing to believe in his own dream
when others seem too busy or uncaring to encourage him.
Every great Inventor, such as Thomas Edison,
faced waves of ridicule and scorn
before there genius was recognized and appreciated.
Dont forget to keep your focus on where you are going
and refuse to be discouraged by the present circumstances
that will soon pass.
Aloneness removes the stain of wrong Influence.
I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee, (Hebrews 13:5)
http://www.movieset.com/beatdown
Take tiny steps, always moving forward, creeping an inch at a time, always flowing with movement, breaking down my goals into many small stepping stones. Progress creates joy, and there are two things more Important than your money. Your energy and your time!!! Small steps matter!!!
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Beat-Down/116987431653638
We could learn a lot from crayo...ns... Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names, and all are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.
Official BEATDOWN Trailer
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bfl58LzsAX...o
BEAT DOWN.www.movieset.com/beatdown/vide os/hj90wq/Beat-Down-Contest-Wi nner-Shout-outBeatdown (Ws Sub Ac3 Dol) (2010)Rudy Youngblood (Actor), Danny Trejo (Actor) Rated: R
Format: DVD http://www.amazon.com/Beatdown-Ws-Sub-Ac3-Dol/dp/B003QWVPSUThis title will be released on August 31, 2010. Pre-order now! Ships from and sold by Amazon.com. Gift-wrap available.

July 1st 2010

PAPA BEAR has entered FrffFree Birdffeef in the Mobile Short Film Contest

This video was shot on my cell phone November 11th, 2005. I finallyÂ was able to get the right USB...

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PAPA BEAR Free Bird
This video was shot on my cell phone November 11th, 2005. I finally was able to get the right USB cable to get ...morethe Images and video from my Ill forgottin cell phone …so I dusted off the cob webs… And I created and edited this video today February 19th, 2010 to remember this special day with fond memories… allways take time to enjoy and cherish life… and live each moment as if it were yer last…

I would like to add my true story of my, CROSS DESIGN MIRACLE… as it goes with and explains the transition in this video… also I am adding my poem that I wrote called, MY POND, that I was Inspired to write after sitting outside enjoying the pond that I designed and created… I am a kid at heart, I have a passion to design, create and enhance everything that I do…

My, Cross Design Miracle.

It was the end of January 2008, in the middle of winter with freezing cold temperatures, & everything was covered in a frozen blanket of snow. I was getting near to my final 40 mile round trips to moveing to our new home. Ya see, to understand this move, I will have to say it was the biggest & hardest move I have ever made!

After being layed off, and struggling through a whirl wind of tragic events and much financial hardships that created a vast rippled effect, and trying to save our home… we finally lost the battle. We lost our home…
It took me well over a Month to move, working at it everyday, without missing a click, from morning till night. I was moveing into the home in witch I grew up in. That had been cluttered with a wide variety of collectable junk over a period of over 45 years! Along with family & relatives thinking that my parents home was a storage dumping ground for there unwanted, out dated & never to be used again cluttered junk!!! So in order to be able to move my family in, I had to juggle stuff around, go through junk, figure out what was good, what needed to be stored away, shuffle things around, get rid of unwanted & unused clutter, giveing alot away to charityâ€¦ it was not an easy thing to do! I was elected & givein the unwanted task to do & perform these duties, & make the best judgement, & decisions, I'll tell ya, this added more heartache to my already heavily burdened heart & soul. But non the less, it had to be done!

So, as ya might already have an idea of how my days were planned & scheduled. Depending on where I was at, at the time. I would load up either in the evening or the next morning my F-350 4 wheel drive pick up, & closed in 12' trailer. Then make my 20 mile trip to our new home, to make a full day of unloading, loading, going through stuff, rearrangeing things to make room for our stuff. While we ourselves sacrificed so much of our own as well. (I consider Moveing one heck of a cardio/workout!!!).

Yea, I know, what does all this have to do with the title of my blog??? ...lol Well, I was always told, & now I see it in me. That I have alot of my fathers personality traits in me! My dad would always explain things/stories in great detail, always makeing sure not to miss a click! & I believe that the details leading up to my miracle hold a valueable significance, & is an important lesson that I wanted to share about haveing patience & virtue.

Well, my old home held alot more yard than the one I have now, & oh, how I enjoy working on my yard, designing & createing landscapes, benches & planter boxes, patios & decks, putting water fountain decorations & ponds, bird baths & houses, gardening & so on (I even had my own little pumpkin patch! That did very well, I might add!) o.k yea, I lived in a mobile home park, on a court in the back next to the woods with a small creek & a pond. Our 2004 manufactured home had a little more than 2000 square foot. Yea, alot of people said, why do I spend so much time trying to fix up my yard so much??? Its only a trailer park!!! My answer was simple, I said, Just because ya live in a trailer park doesnt mean ya have to live like trailer trash Ya see, I have always looked at life different then other people, always looking for the good & positive things in life. Looking at people for who they are on the inside.

As I said, it was was the middle of winter, it was freezing outside, everything was frozen in the ground covered in a blanket of snow, like the frozen candy coated topping on an ice cream cone! I had been prayin long & hard, that I might be able to take some of my landscaped bricks, stones, rocks, & different decorative landscapeing decor. I tell ya for 3 days, (3 days!!!) there was a miracle!!! The weather had warmed up just enough to thaw the frozen ground, so that I could take the things that I wanted out of my yard. To be able to take everything that I wanted & transport it to my new home, took me 3 days!!! By the end of the 3 days, & I had all my stuff I wanted & needed to get, the weather again turned bitter cold, & everything froze back over!!!

Just to let ya know as my miracle happened, I also endured more set backs with my truck. Prior to the surge of warm weather, I had to put my truck in low 4X4 gear, so I could back up the trailer in my slightly sloaped driveway. Not haveing used low gear since I owned my truck since 2004, it got stuck in low gear!!! Not haveing the funds to fix it, & not being able to get a replacement vehicle, I had to endure the rest of my trips in low gear, makeing my 20 minute trips turn into 1 hour dragging rides at 20-25 miles per hour tops!!! Yea, I had tried several different ways of getting it freed up, includeing backing up, & hitting the brakes, & several different untold waysâ€¦

That is my story of the miracle of my Cross Designed 12 x12 patio, that I created & made. You can see my design & some of my landscape creations in my pics and videosâ€¦

‘My Pond’
My pond is where I go to meditate.
I listen to the water trickle…
as it flows from the cherub, up above.
The goldfish and koi surface from beneath…
making there way through
the pond lettuce and lily pads…
for a taste of there daily morsel.
as no stranger to the surroundings…
comes forth the robin.
to partake in the ritual bathing.
as the area blooms
with an array of vibrant color,
I love this peaceful place…
My pond…
Where I go to meditate.

By: Kevin Mattson

February 21st 2010

PAPA BEAR Ya know... most of all my videos that I have created and made is something about my life and has and hold very unique and ...morespecial meaning to me. I know the quality of this film is poor, heck, it was shot on my old cell phone 5 years ago... but what I did with it is Incredible and very creative. Taking the footage off of the phone, I could have just posted it as is... I was able to capture each precious moment through the transition and realte it to a special time we once new but have not forgottin... this was a special moment of time, and I not only wanted to capture the moment, but enhance this day, by createing a lifetime rememberance of a home we once knew... that we worked so hard to keep... and all the long hours and hard work, sweat, blood and tears went into makeing and creating this special home of ours... only to lose our home, due to unfortionate circomstances that came about due to layoffs of an unfruitful economy... and how we struggled and worked so hard to try to save and keep our home... and in the end we lost it... but we did not lose our dignity... we picked up the broken pieces, and we managed to work together and move on... I may feel the burden and sadness heavily in my heart from losing our home... but, I do not entertain that thought, and through my eyes I do not see the negative dark shadows of that time... I see the briliant vivid colors come alive... and through my undying faithfullness and prayer in God, I seen my Croos Design Miracle take place... as I was able to transfer much of my landscape creations and transfer them to our new house, that has become our new home... a home that is built with unconditional love and forgiveness... to care for one another... and to allways remember and cherish eachother and live each day as if it were your last... I am a frre natured soul... I am a Free Bird... I AM ALIVE!!!

February 28th 2010

mcfreshjive hey papa bear! Great short film, it seems you have an affinity for shooting on special days which makes your films memorable and substantial, good work!

June 29th 2010

PAPA BEAR has posted SHADOWED WARRIOR in Demo Reels

I had the idea for this Memorial Day Tribute since I did a 9/11 tribute video in 2009. I always like...

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mcfreshjive You had some great shots , and overall a great subject, good work!

June 29th 2010

PAPA BEAR · Hey BIGSTAR!!! Good Morning to you ;) . I watched a very Inspiring Interview to the right of my home page from Roxwell.com, on Dave Mustaine, I enjoyed that very much. I always have been a BIG fan of Megadeth, as well as Dave Mustaine's carreer. Anyway, I had not seen that Interview before. Thanks ;) PAPA BEAR

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PAPA BEAR has posted a new Photo

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mcfreshjive Crazy tattoo's man! Are you a biker, that looks like a crew flag beneath the american flag!

June 25th 2010

PAPA BEAR · MMA movie BEATDOWN: http://www.amazon.com/Beatdown-Ws-Sub-Ac3-Dol/dp/B003QWVPSU Beatdown (Ws Sub Ac3 Dol) (2010)Rudy Youngblood (Actor), Danny Trejo (Actor) | Rated: R | Format: DVD This title will be released on August 31, 2010.Pre-order now!

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PAPA BEAR has entered Inspirational Great Grandma (Part 2 of 2) in the High Definition Short Film Contest

This video is a true documentary storied video, that shows how a great greatmother continues to reach out and care...

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Miami River Productions You have a very kind
grandmother... God bless her.

April 12th 2010

PAPA BEAR Thank you very much Miami River Productions... I appreciate your feedback, and glad you liked my video as-well. Hey, that is not my Grandma, that ...moreis my Mother ;) ... just wanted to let you know... my mom is a Great Grandma

April 13th 2010

PAPA BEAR REMEMBERING MY FATHER: 11/21/41 - 04/15/07.

April 15th 2010

PAPA BEAR Happy Mothers Day

May 9th 2010

Sergi Rubió God exists in our avility to give love to the others. I cried. Congratulations, both the filmmakers and this madam.

June 14th 2010

PAPA BEAR Thank you so much for your feedback Sergi Rubio'. It is definately a much rewarding compliment coming from you!!! I checked out your Impressive profile, ...moreyou Inspire me very much to say the least!!! Thank you again, so much!!!

June 14th 2010

MickDagoProductions She seems like a wonderful lady. Great video

June 15th 2010

Fuzzyball Productions Wowwwww!!! That film makes us realize how blessed we really are, and your mom and you showed that it doesn't take a whole lot to ...morebe a huge help to those in need. Very touching and thanks for that inspirational lift...

June 16th 2010

Fuzzyball Productions › PAPA BEAR · Hi Kevin, I got in about an hour ago and have been trying to view Inspirational Great Grandma for about 30mins now, been unsuccessful in pulling it up... Not sure if it is available for viewing or not, however I was able to read the synopsis and it sounded deep and touching.... I have been having numerous problems with my system lately, unfortunately I won't be able to have it fixed or looked at until wednesday... very anxious to check it out though... Got to head back out for a bit, will check back in tomorrow night... also got your message bro, will check out beat down trailer on the sites you sent.. Check you later guy!

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PAPA BEAR > Fuzzyball Productions~Alright Sean, no problem, thanks for checking it out. Take care and God Bless.

June 15th 2010

Fuzzyball Productions › PAPA BEAR · Wassup Papa Bear!! I just stopped in briefly and noticed you have the new film posted, I'm short on time right now, but I will check it out tonight... Later dude!!

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PAPA BEAR Fuzzyball Production~ Oh yea, I have that up, and so much more!!! I have been very busy posting content and material all over, 24/7. Thanks ...morefor stopping by, I appreciate very much yer feedback...Take care bro!!!

June 14th 2010

PAPA BEAR · Official BEATDOWN Trailer!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bfl58LzsAXo Facebook BEATDOWN page: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Beat-Down/116987431653638

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PAPA BEAR http://www.movieset.com/beatdown
LionsGate, Grindstone, in association with MovieSet.com
MMA Movie 'Beatdown' !!!
Get your first look at upcoming action film Beat Down staring Rudy ...moreYoungblood (Apocalypto), Danny Trejo (Eyeborgs), UFC fighter Michael Bisping, Eric Balfour (Spread) and Susie Abromeit (I Hope They Serve Beer in Hell).

June 14th 2010

PAPA BEAR · Official BEATDOWN Trailer Brandon, a respected street fighter, is forced to flee the city after his brother is murdered and the money that was supposed to be paid back to a local gangster is stolen. While laying low at his father's house in a small Southern town, Brandon soon gets involved in the local underground cage fighting circuit. With the help of Drake Colby, a former MMA champion, Brandon devises a scheme to bring a massive payday, if they are able to survive.

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PAPA BEAR http://blog.movieset.com/films-on-movieset/on-set-with-beat-downs-susie-abromeit
Clip description: Actress Susie Abromeit talks about her character Erin, the plot of the film and the benefits of filming in Austin, Texas.
MMA BEATDOWN compared to ROCKY movie gone MMA ;)

June 14th 2010

PAPA BEAR has posted Inspirational Great Grandma (Part 2 of 2) Ja'Noah House...The video! in Demo Reels

This video is dedicated to my Father, Carl Mattson 11/21/41-04/15/07 I have come a long way not only in my goals...

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PAPA BEAR This video/film is dedicated to my Father, Carl Mattson 11/21/41-04/15/07.

I felt strongly compelled to make a video of my Mom. This is ...morepart two of a Documentary Interview that I did with my Mom, which shows a little of what she does and has done ever so faithfully for over 20 years since starting Ja'Noah House. Ever since my Dad passed away on April 15th, 2007, my Mom has went through so much heartache & pain both mentally, and physically, and financially. But yet, I NEVER hear her complain!!!

Her Spiritual Faith in God has been UNBREAKABLE ever since she gave her heart to Jesus when she was a young girl. She is truly an Inspiration to me to never give up hope. One of her favorite scriptures, They call it, "Gods calling number"..."Jerimiah 33:3 Call unto Me, & I will answer you & show you Great & Mighty things which you know not." if you like, you can contact her at: janoah@sbcglobal.net I know she would love to hear from you!!! ("Ja'Noah House has been a legitimate fully license Non- Profit Organization for 20 years, donations are excepted and very much appreciated & are tax detuctable).
NOTE: MY MOM THOUGHT I WAS JUST DOING ANOTHER DOCUMENTARY INTERVIEW ON HER. WHEN I HAD ASKED HER IF SHE WOULD KNEEL DOWN AND PRAY IN FRONT OF THE COUCH. SHE DID SO WITHOUT HESITATION, AND SHE WAS REALLY PRAYING. WHEN I WAS FINISHED TAKING THE SHOT, I HAD TO HELP HER UP, SHE WAS NOT ABLE TO ON HER OWN, BECAUSE OF HER SEVERE HIP PROBLEM. SHE DID NOT COMPLAIN AT ALL ABOUT IT, AND SAID SHE WOULD GLADLY DO IT AGAIN IF I NEEDED HER TO!
WHEN I SENT HER THE LINK TO VIEW HER NEW VIDEO THE NEXT DAY, HERE IS WHAT I WROTE TO HER.
Hey Mom, I finished your video!!! I am so tired, I was up all night working on this. I was so moved while editing this, the tears were just rolling down my cheeks, and I had warm chills and goosebumps all over!!! ...I love you Mom, God Bless You!!!
February 21st, 2010

June 13th 2010

PAPA BEAR has posted 2 new Photos

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Kewin Santos ooooooooooooooooo

June 11th 2010

PAPA BEAR has entered World Through A Snow Globe in the Experimental Short Film Contest

Coming to Life... Capturing the EYE with with the joy and beauty of vivid Imagination!!! Life is full of valuable lessons,...

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PAPA BEAR I have not seen a film that goes beyond tradition and presents a unique project of a snow globe done in this way before. This ...moreunique experimental film was alot of fun, and very special for me to do. With much thought and feeling from my heart I was very Inspired and compelled to create my World Through A Snow Globe.
Throughout my experimental short, I linear, relating my water fountains as well as my landscape designs to relate my snow globed world. Periodically slowing down the flow of water fountains, adding a effect that coinsides with asynchronous sound, and sight, giving an eerie sound and visual effect also at the end of this short. And as you see in the last minute of my video, a quick shot of me gazing into the snow globe, then as the camera slowly follows the tree tops from the sky, and finally focuses in on my snow globed world becoming a reality... Life is too short, have fun with it!!!

June 11th 2010

PAPA BEAR · http://www.bigstar.tv/bigstar-online-film-festival There are so many very Impressive short films that I watch and rate here @ BIGSTAR!!! Why dont more of you Indie film makers enter the BOFF with a $50,000 grand prize for one film (YOU CAN ENTER MORE THAN FILM) of 5 minutes or less, and any genre is accepted!!! It is WELL WORTH thee little $25. dollar entry fee cost to enter, let alone the promotion and noteriety views you'll get from people viewing your films!!! How SWEET is that!!!

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MickDagoProductions I will most def be entering a couple films. I have the scripts done, so I can hopfully start shooting soon after i get back from Iraq.

June 9th 2010

PAPA BEAR Sweet!!! I am excited, and Highly anticipate looking forward to seeing your films!!!

June 10th 2010

PAPA BEAR has posted a new Photo

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PAPA BEAR I have my new film up in my demo reels called,
*******SHADOWED WARRIOR*******
http://www.bigstar.tv/demo-reel/293

June 9th 2010

PAPA BEAR has entered NEVER FORGET II... in the Open Subject Short Film Contest

I am a 42 year old Grandpa I have had, & overcome severe lower back problems, 2 Massive Hernias, in...

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PAPA BEAR BROKEN CHUKS…
January 13, 2009

http://blog.bodybuilding.com/kevinmattson/2009/01/13/broken-chuks/

A long time ago…I will tell you, my life has not been an easy road traveled. ...moreI have definately come a long way!!! And though I have always been faithful in keeping with a strict regime of Weight Training, Martial Arts, Boxing… I had dealt with an alcohol addiction. I have suffered through much, physically, mentally, & spiritually, constantly at war with myself, trying countless times & ways 2 stop. I was a “happy go lucky” drinker, that everyone liked to have around, & that put my quietness 2 rest.
My Grandfather, (PAPA), passed away 12 years ago…We were very close, & his death hit me hard. I would always practice striking my heavy bag, trees & objects out back of my home, while continually twirlin my 2 pair of nun�chuks in synchronicity, & keeping the rythem of a controlled return from the strike…
When I busted out in tears, my heart felt crushed… it was as though I was being suffocated & could not breath. My broken heart was confused, & anger consumed me, when I smashed my chuks repeatedly until they broke… I keep them as a reminder… & sentimental value.

I would like to add how my broken chuks ties in as-well with my Gravity Boots. It was around this time when I had purchased my Gravity Boots & begun my unusual, & very unique style of Focused Gravity Boot Training.

I finally was able 2 quit drinking… I am celebrating my 6th year of sobriety this 2010 year!!! …The year that my Hellish Rollercoaster ride ended, at the end of 2004. I had 3 close Uncles, that had passed away that year, my Uncle Wally (Copper),my Uncle Rudy, & my Uncle John. All of whom were very close and dear to my heart. I also had watched a real close friend drink himself 2 death. He wasted away right before my eyes, as all I could do was drink his poison with him… & to add to my allready broken heart… my Father-in-law passed away unexpectedly right before ThanksGiving of 2004. What hurt me even more, was to see how badly my wife took her fathers death. She fell apart…she was blank and it was as though I did not even know her. I felt helpless… & seein my children react 2 all of this, tore the rest of my shredded heart right out of my chest!!! … if my heart was still alive, I know it would surely break!!!

…by the end of December, as I sat alone out side, in the cold brisk night, with a drink in my hand, & I looked up into the night sky, at the stars & moon in the heavens… I had a strange feelin come over me, I could feel a warm tingling energy flow through my body… I burst into tears… & as I said a verbal prayer 2 God, I smashed the drink down, as I vowed never 2 drink another drop as long as I live…I quit cold turkey! I have never looked back upon that day. & I have NO REGRETS!!!

Since I quit drinking, my life style has slowly Improved, my attitude, & outlook on life has changed drastically!!! And although the road that I travel on is still filled with obsticals, & barriors… My strong rooted spiritual faith has kept me mentally, physically, & spiritually able 2 carry on, & blast through them more easily!!! My heartache & pain has only made me stronger, & more dedicated, & determined to always be faithful… & never give up!!!

I know everybody has there own, “private hell” that they must face in life. But, this is my story, & my hope & prayer is that I might be able 2 influence, encourage, & motivate others 2 overcome ther adversities! I know your time is valueable, & I want to thank you for taking your time to read my story… thank you!!!

P.S. If ya get a chance, please read (1 Corinthians15:50-58)… “Death is swallowed up in victory. 55 O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?”.

Thanks, Yer friend always…Kevin Mattson

Focused Training Gravity Boot Workout XIII

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_hhqkYWusgE

Special Memorial Day Tribute
May 25, 2009
Tricep pull downs exercises / & stretch
Weigh in @ 200 pounds
My concentration & focus has improved & increased significantly!!! I feel that I have made awesome progress in 5 months time. My thoughts are clear & crisp...& I am looking forward 2 enhancing my progress further...

February 11th 2010

MickDagoProductions whats up Papa Bear! I dig the film; I have been boxing for the past 5 years or so. I was on my way to ...moretrying out for the Air Force boxing team before shattering my hand and having to get some rods placed in it. I'm back to training though, so we will see. Anyway, I wanted to know who this music is; it sounds a lot like Zakk Wylde's voice, so is it BLS?

June 9th 2010

PAPA BEAR Hey thanks MickDago, I appreciate yer feedback. Just to let you know, I did not create these films to enter into contests. I created them ...moreas unusually unique 'workout' film/videos, keeping trac of my progress not only physically, but as learning tools, and stepping stones. And as my physical progress enhanced, so did my creativness with my films, and exploring new challenges. Check out my story, 'The Story and Struggles of PAPA BEAR'
http://kevinmattson-papabear.tumblr.com/ How I Incorperated the use of my Gravity Boots in in making short video films, and in doing so won me the chance to appear in the upcoming LionsGate, Grindstone, in association with MovieSet.com
MMA Movie 'Beatdown'.

June 9th 2010

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Josh Perez › PAPA BEAR · You'll probably like this film: http://www.bigstar.tv/movie/blood-sweat-and-teeth

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PAPA BEAR Thanks Josh, high intensity extreme cage fighting that does not stop until the blood sweat and teeth hit the floor sounds SWEET to me, lol ...more!!! I will put this on my priority list for a must see movie, thanks for posting!!!

June 2nd 2010

Josh Perez No problem. I've actually had that sitting in my playlist for a while now. Been meaning to watch it

June 2nd 2010

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PAPA BEAR · MMA movie BEATDOWN: http://www.amazon.com/Beatdown-Ws-Sub-Ac3-Dol/dp/B003QWVPSU Beatdown (Ws Sub Ac3 Dol) (2010)Rudy Youngblood (Actor), Danny Trejo (Actor) | Rated: R | Format: DVD This title will be released on August 31, 2010.Pre-order now!

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Fuzzyball Productions › PAPA BEAR · Wassup Papa Bear!! I just stopped in briefly and noticed you have the new film posted, I'm short on time right now, but I will check it out tonight... Later dude!!

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